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The Man with the Flat Cap

Flash fiction again.

 

The Man with the Flat Cap

She sat looking out the cafe window at the cold white Christmas lights and tried to remember who she was. Her husband gone. All alone.

Her coffee was cold. She didn’t care. She sat and stared at the lights, longing to be one of them, to not feel anymore.

Something passed in front of them, obliterating her view in dark shadow.

Fuck it.

She got up and paid, leaving her coffee on the table.

 

She walked to her car when a chill swept under her skin, colder than the cutting winter wind. She turned and saw a man with a flat cap silhouetted, a dark shadow against the lights.

Although she couldn’t be sure, he seemed to be following her. She shuddered and walked faster.

Straining to hear his footsteps behind her, to keep track of how close he was, she hurried to her car. With trembling hands she unlocked the door and climbed in. Slamming the door shut and locking it, she peered out, but the man was gone.

She felt silly. But glad to be safe.

Why didn’t she hear his footsteps?

Shaken, she pulled her gloves out of her pocket, dropped one on the floor under her seat, reached for it.

In the dim glow of the lights, she saw something else under the seat.

Her husband’s flat cap.

She realized that terror she’d felt was the first time in a month she’d been glad to be alive.

She chuckled at his sense of humor. He was always one for pranks. And she didn’t feel so alone anymore.

Something metallic lightly tapped her window.

She glanced up and into the face of the man who had been following her. He was grinning at her, all brown mangled teeth, and tapping on her window with a knife.

She screamed, started the car, and veered away, leaving the man in the street, laughing hysterically under the cold white lights.

Crazy days

A little bit about overcoming my emotional repression. This one was hard to share, I actually wrote it yesterday but didn’t have the courage to share it until now. Funny, what I’m afraid of.

 

What an emotional day.

I felt crazy at work to start with

The photographer’s flattery got me off keel

Then I got screamed at by a random road rager

Though I thought I took it well, when I got home I cried

But… in the photographs, my smile is real

And the tears had come freely

For me, this is a big step forward.

I rewatched a show and it had more import

And I thought, oh my God,

I’ve been missing out on so much of the storytelling experience

I’m going to have to read all the classics over again

Goddamnit all.

In Fashion

There is an ever changing beauty standard.

It is so slow, it can only be noticed

Every ten years

And the women’s hair and faces magically morph to meet this standard.

It’s like they don’t even have to try to change

It just happens.

Every ten years

The clothes change.

Everyone wears what is presented to them by the fashionable stores

And advertisement.

Every ten years

The human body changes with it.

Big butts, big boobs, tall shoes, abs, toned arms, long legs, tall hair, thick eyebrows, hair color, skin color

It’s incredible how much we can change of ourselves.

Every ten years

The music standards change

Everyone sings with the same voice

Everyone plays the same instruments

And has the same emotion

Everyone lives in the same house

Reads the same books

Watches what is on Netflix

Has the same job

Is this happiness?

What the hell are we

We are ants

Without a queen

Following the ant in front of us

In a death spiral.

Kitty has bladder stones

I don’t want my kitty to die.

I don’t want him to be sick.

I hate seeing him in pain.

He’s just fluffy and nice and doesn’t need this.

Hopefully surgery will help.

Poor kitty.

I want him to play again.

It’s my fault you know.

I fed him spinach

Only a little bit as a treat each day

But it must have built up in his system.

It’s frustrating.

You try and do the right thing

And another wrong thing is done anyway.

You keep the kitty inside

To prevent it getting hit by cars

Instead it gets struck by disease

Obese from boredom and inactivity

You feel bad for keeping it inside so you give it greens

Then it gets another disease from that.

Fucking cats should fucking be outside.

I’d so much rather he be hit by a car than this.

But Don doesn’t get it.

Modern medicine is a shitty fucking thing

You get to stretch out a life

You can’t really fix anything

But you can choose your manner of death, I guess.

What is the Tao way to handle this?

The Tao way would be to let him be outside and play

He would be so much happier

He would get his exercise

And unlimited grass to eat

And unlimited creatures to murder in that cold sociopathic cat way

And unlimited risk.

I want to let him have what he wants

Kitties are perfect in their Tao

They know what’s good for them

Unless it’s spinach.

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