Cruel Fickle Fate
Haa, this is pretty cringey. I must’ve been around fourteen when I wrote it? I even thought it was passable when I reread it a few years ago. Now it pains me… oh, so much. That’s proof of how much I’ve learned.
I first noticed your gait, and your carriage, your state
Then the look in your eyes took me right by surprise.
I knew not fickle Fate had been lying in wait
Creeping silently nigh, telling love to arise
When I realized what happened, I was far too late
I was caught in the clutches of cruel fickle Fate
In hindsight, my life grew gradually towards you
But I saw it not, no, naught I saw ‘til ‘twas through.
Years of calluses cut in a single, swift blow
How did I let it happen? I simply don’t know
But I cherished your care, you’re still dearer than air
Though you’re now underground, now I drown without you.
I followed, thou led — O cruel fickle Fate!
Thou’d said we would wed — O God, now this hate!
Thou’d left me for dead — I wept, thou unmoved
I watched as thou bled — how dearly I’d loved!
You know I still love thee, Beloved, Unlovéd
I know you’re above me, Unlovéd, Beloved
You hurt me, I hate thee, Beloved, Unlovéd
I’ll never forgive thee, Unlovéd, Beloved
Why did you leave me, Beloved, Unlovéd
I had to revenge me, Unlovéd, Beloved
Murder isn’t easy, Beloved, Unlovéd
Why’d you make me hurt thee? Unlovéd, Beloved
I’m torn in between me — Beloved, Unlovéd
I love thee, I hate thee — Unlovéd, Beloved