I knew a man
I knew a man,
though not very well.
A nice man
now dead
from pneumonia.
We were all looking sideways at S——
with her regrowing cancer hair
but death came at us
from an unexpected direction.
I wasn’t even aware he was sick
until Friday.
On Saturday
I cut off the tip of my finger.
It’s not often I am afraid
but I was
truly
afraid.
I pressed my finger into my palm to stem the bleeding.
It felt deformed. Too short, too flat.
I didn’t want to know what it looked like.
A reminder of my mortality
too close
too close.
On Monday
we get the office email.
He has died. We grieve his passing.
The office is quiet
with heavy atmosphere.
Somebody has set
a vase of flowers
outside his office door.
They have been placed there
very gently
by honoring hands,
sad hands.
We need
to honor the dead.
We decorate their haunts.
We create ceremonies.
We save mementos.
We tell stories.
I only knew this man by sight.
Another office worker
someone who helped grease the cogs
of our mutual machine.
We might wave or nod.
He had a habit
of muttering to himself
funny, quirky things.
I would pick up snatches of his internal dialog
when I walked by.
How well did he know me?
My finger is stiff with scab.
I worry at it, clean it, unwrap it, rewrap it.
It will have to last me
a few years longer.
Our lives are fragile, delicate like a flower
Yes Sarah, all life is precious,
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Touching and sad. Beautifully written.
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Fantastic poem, Sarah! Raw and powerful.
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Death hits hard. Our world is a puzzle with many and varied pieces. Then suddenly a piece is missing. No wonder it feels wrong and awkward and jolting.
Well done, Sarah.
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That’s crazy.
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You really cut the tip of your finger off???
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I did! Just the fleshy part though, no bone. And only a tiny bit of the nail bed. It was freaky but I didn’t need to go to the hospital or anything, and it’s already regenerating like Wolverine
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EEK. I would have puked and passed out. I don’t have a problem with blood. I have a problem with damaging my body. I have passed out over dislocated knees.
Let me know if you grow an adamantium nail.
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ooh, a dislocated knee sounds horrifying!!!
An adamantium nail would be hardcore. I’ll watch it and keep you updated.
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It is…was. Left knee. Dislocated about once every month for about three years. Then two surgeries…😖😫
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Aauuughgh, that’s so horrible! I’ll glad it doesn’t dislocate EVERY MONTH anymore
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ME, TOO.
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