A Question on “Fading”
I wrote Fading because I’ve been thinking about this lately:
If we lose our memories, do we also lose our coping mechanisms?
If I lost my memories, would I revert to self-harm? Would I forget to lean on the Tao, and struggle against what everyone needs of me? Would I go back to being a supercilious intellectual? Will I go back to repressing? To unfeeling depressive episodes? To crushing self-loathing?
Will all these decades of personal growth be reversed in the final years of my life?
Maybe my story is too cynical. Maybe even when the memories are lost, the habits which are strongly engrained remain. Maybe a coping mechanism is more of a habit than a memory.
What do you guys think?