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Feeling Large and Heavy

 

I got to play on an obstacle course

I didn’t have courage for half of the things

And wasn’t physically capable of the other half

I felt very large and heavy

I think if there’d been more adults on it

I wouldn’t have felt so silly

And maybe would have tried harder

 

I urged my sister

“Climb the 10 foot warped wall, for women everywhere!”

She looked at me funny.

Wondering if I’d said something sexist,

I revised my statement

“I mean… just for me, right here.”

I wanted her to do it

(I’m certain she could)

Because I was incapable

And I’ve spent my life feeling athletic

Vicariously through her.

 

Feeling large

And barge-y

Stomping around on my giant feet

I have grace

For one my weight

But no one else here is like me

The kids are swift, slender elves

My sister is strong and light

She is bamboo

She is tendons veins gristle

She is elegant cheekbones and arched brows

And blessed melanin, actual eyelashes, tanning skin

She slips through anything

She climbs like a rat

She swings like a monkey

 

Here I sit, here I sit

Pores full of shit

Not fit

 

Just the same I tried to flip

And hit the trampoline

Like a thrown elephant.

WHAM!

A man quickly approaches me

“You did sign the waiver, right?”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


 

 

 

floating

 

I had a wonderful break. I’d tell you all about my awkward adventures but I have to catch up on work! O_O

 


 

 

everything is weightless here

rocks lift water

water supports leaves

a stick, hooked on a rock, held by the current, forever nods

creek cups air

air elevates clouds

 

effortless

gentle

trickling, wet plashes, and bloops

tender caressing breeze

leaves float downstream

leaves stick in gullies

leaves collect on the bank

 

i too sit weightless

being nothing is easy

i don’t mind the rocks underneath

neither do they mind me

 

the clouds in the sky

churn

ever mixing, never blending

overwhelming blue

swallows us all

creek, rocks, sticks, leaves, and me

 

beyond the hill sounds Dragon Fire

a Heavy Breathing Hot Air Balloon

Inflates into view

 

guess nobody told them

they don’t need to try so hard

to float