To lose you
Unimaginable
You are half of me.
You are always there.
When I need a laugh,
When I need a cry.
You know me best
You read my heart
You see my soul.
To lose you
Is to lose myself.
A vital organ
Roughly excised
By uncaring reality.
I have confidence in my ability to face anything
Only because you support me.
Nothing scares me
Except
The prospect of life without you
Makes me dizzy with fear.
Yesterday was an eventful day.
His twin hadn’t been there to see it.
He sits on the front step for two hours
Talking to him on the phone.
They sift through the events
Passing the details back
And forth
Until both find common ground
Until each knows
Exactly as much
As the other knows.
An icy little wind devil
kicks up the air in my cube
leans against my left shoulder to read what I write
blows on my soup
peeks under my blanket
keeps making grabs for my toes.
The office AC has summoned him.
Only he who has been granted
the power of the thermostat
can send him back to the ninth circle
from whence he came.
I like my cats.
They’re soft and cute.
Their ears stick up.
Their tails stick up.
They don’t make a ruckus.
They follow me quietly.
They balance grace on their shoulders.
Their eyes are cautious yellow topaz.
When they lick yogurt off my finger
They are delicate, gentle
Careful with their claws and teeth
And they purrrrr
I reaped a cloud
with my little finger.
What a day that was.
I took it home
Put it in a jar
And labeled it
Do not open til Christmas.
But it got the cap loose
While I had it in storage
And it suffocated my family
For its vengeance.
I had reached too high.
I might have known
I couldn’t keep a cloud.
